Chapter 2.
Becoming the Villainâs Secretary (2)
I had to admit it.
I had been totally defeated by this man who was grinning at me, curious about what excuse Iâd come up with next.
While I bit down on my lower lip, Helwid spoke.
âI know youâre the countâs daughter, but serving me is far more honorable than becoming a lady-in-waiting in the empressâs palace.â
Helwid stared at me, looking genuinely confused as to why I wanted to resign.
He wasnât wrong.
Of course, since he currently had no empressâand never wouldâbeing a lady-in-waiting for one was impossible to begin with.
But becoming the emperorâs personal secretary, someone who held even greater power than the empress, was not something just anyone could achieve.
The list of former secretaries who had been dismissed because of Helwidâs razor-sharp tongue could probably fill ten sheets of A5 paper.
âThe palace is known as the workplace of dreams, and among all positions, working as my secretary is what everyone desires. So why is my new secretary so desperate to quit?â
Helwid rested his chin on his hand and smiled like he was genuinely curious.
Behind that gentle, warm expression, I could feel the sharp, merciless aura of the âfinal boss.â
Why? Because if I stay next to you, my life expectancy will drop by the second, and if Iâm unlucky, Iâll die on the spotâand then I wonât be able to return to my original world!
ââŠMay I speak honestly?â
âOnly now you choose to be honest? Go ahead.â
âI donât want to work.â
ââŠâŠâ
âHonestly, Iâm the only daughter of a count. I can live without doing anything and still retire comfortably. I donât need a salary, and I donât have any debts to pay offâŠâ
ââŠâŠâ
âSo wouldnât it be better to hire someone more passionate and diligent? Someone actually suited for the prestigious role of the emperorâs secretary?â
I flashed my most socially graceful, harmless smile.
Helwid listened quietly, leaned back, and let out a leisurely sigh.
âThat will be difficult.â
âWhy?â
ââWhy?ââ
ââ!â
When I quickly covered my mouth, Helwid let out a soft laugh.
âBecause I like you.â
What kind of nonsense is that.
âHow many people do you think can speak their minds to the emperor like you do? Even the most talented, passionate secretary is nothing more than a scheduler if they canât speak their own thoughts.â
Scheduler, he says. Seriously?
âI need a secretary like you. Someone who says what shouldnât be said.â
The emperor chuckled, but I replied firmly:
âNo.â
âNo?â
âYes.â
âItâs an imperial command.â
My tongue froze.
With mischievous delight, Helwidâs eyes curved into crescents.
Just like the novel describedâno, worseâhis face was beautiful enough to make someone want to punch him five thousand times.
As I stared at him, boiling on the inside, he gave the final blow.
âDefying an imperial order is punishable by death.â
Somehow, this final boss had figured out exactly what my weakness was.
And at that moment, I knew with absolute certainty:
I was doomed. Completely doomed.
âAh, the count wishes to have breakfast with you.â
âFather?â
I paused while reviewing the emperorâs schedule and looked up.
âYes, itâs been a while, hasnât it?â
âI guess soâŠâ
Three days had passed since I became the emperorâs secretary. Today was my fourth day reporting to work.
Father and I had been in a cold war ever since we fought over the original heroineâGlumieâon my first day.
âI thought he would have called you in the very next day.â
Millina said while ironing the dress I would wear.
âBut he was incredibly upset. Would he really calm down in just one day?â
âBut I heard he drank that night.â
âHe⊠drank?â
Ever since the countess died giving birth to Blain, father had quit drinking entirely.
Millina nodded earnestly.
âHe was that distressedâŠ?â
I felt a tiny pang of guilt.
âWhy donât you reconcile with him over breakfast? If you wear that pale sky-blue dress he likes, Iâm sure heâll be happy.â
âActually, about the dress.â
As soon as I set my feet down, Millina hurried over with slippers.
âFrom today on, I want to wear a suit to work.â
âA⊠a suit?â
Millina tilted her head like sheâd never heard the word before.
âYeah. The previous secretary was a noble too, but he wore a suit. You know, like what I wore when I worked in the palace before, as a low-ranking official.â
âBut back then, you were just a minor employee. Now you are His Majestyâs personal secretaryââ
âPants are more comfortable. And these heavy dresses are hard to sit in.â
The corset alone was suffocating.
âWill His Majesty allow it?â
âIf he doesnât, then⊠Iâll just quit.â
âW-What?â
âIâm wearing it. If he says no⊠perfect excuse to resign.â
I smiled brightly.
If I got fired over dress code? Jackpot.
âButâŠâ
She looked anxious but eventually fetched the suit.
Iâd always preferred pants even before I transmigrated.
So when I learned that palace officials, regardless of gender, wore suits, I was thrilled.
When I went down to the dining room in my suit, Father was already seated.
âYouâre here, Blââ
Father rose to greet me but froze at the sight of my suit.
âThis is easier to work in.â
âBut you are the countâsââ
âDaughter, yes. But wearing something uncomfortable and making mistakes at work would be a much greater disgrace to our family.â
Awkwardly, I explained. Father looked at me with reddened eyes.
âŠWas he still upset?
Maybe I shouldâve worn that sky-blue dress after all.
âBlain, youâŠâ
But instead of anger, his voice trembled.
âTo abandon even your noble pride for the sake of the family⊠ahh, how could I not love you?â
ââŠSorry?â
âWe must tell the world of your devotion to the Empire! Summon an opera composer!â
Father practically jumped from his seat, and I had to struggle to calm him down.
After he finally settled, mid-meal, he suddenly said:
âWeâve lost contact with Miss Glumie.â
âLost contact?â
âYes. She hasnât sent a letter.â
âFor how long?â
âTwo days.â
ââŠOh.â
Was that really considered âlost contactâ?
I stared wordlessly as Father stared at his bread with a gloomy look.
âShe always sent a carrier pigeon within at most a day and a half⊠I am worried.â
âWhy donât you visit her later?â
I was against adopting her, but the heroine losing contact was indeed concerning.
âYou seem worried, though you opposed adopting her.â
Father smiled knowingly.
âWell, of course. She is our savior.â
I lowered my gaze. He mustâve interpreted that as shyness, because his cheeks lifted with pride.
âOh, my cute, lovely daughter. What did I do in my past life to receive such an angel?â
He cupped his face like a flower and beamed at me.
Seeing he had completely forgiven me, I continued my peaceful breakfast with relief.
âA suit?â
The moment I set my bag down in the emperorâs office, Helwid spoke.
How long had he been watching me?
âYes. Pants are more comfortable.â
âBut a suit isnât formal wear.â
As the emperorâs secretary, formal attire was expected.
To nobles, formal meant lavishly decorated clothes that clearly showed oneâs status.
âSo I canât wear a suit? If so, I should submit my resignation.â
âWhen did I ever say no?â
He put down his documents and smiled.
âIt looks quite comfortable. Suits you well. You could even sleep in it.â
I knew he was teasing me, but he clearly wasnât going to fire me over it.
I sighed internally and sat down.
âThereâs something Iâm curious about.â
âIf itâs not personal, Iâll answer.â
âAs your superior, canât I be curious about your personal life? Not sure if this is personal or notâŠâ
âWeâre in a professional relationship. Tell me first, and Iâll judge.â
ââIâll judgeâ? The emperor?â
He sounded offended but was still smiling.
âAre you afraid of dying?â
ââŠOut of nowhere?â
âNot really. You donât care about being my secretary.â
âCorrect.â
Could you fire me already?
But he only smiled.
âYet with one mention of imperial command and possible execution, youâve been showing up early for four days straight.â
ââŠAre you hinting I should arrive even earlier?â
âI do want to see my secretary earlier, but thatâs not the point.â
He laughed loudly, as though my insolence was amusing.
I waited until he calmed down.
âAfraid of dying? Of course. I want to live. Doesnât everyone?â
âLive long? Sounds like you have a goal beyond that.â
Sharp as expected from the mastermind villain.
I changed the subject.
âYour Majesty, donât you have work this morning?â
âNot enough to stop this conversation.â
He wouldnât back down until I said it.
ââŠThereâs just⊠somewhere I want to return to.â
âReturn to?â
At once, Helwidâs eyes sharpened like blades.
There it was again.
The villainâs eyes.