~Chapter 82~
The Woman in the Mirror
ââŠAlright, Father. Iâll speak to the Grand Duke. Butâmay I also send another letter to Baron Turner? Maybe over time, the Grand Dukeâs interest in me will fade.â
âDonât get your hopes up. From the looks of it, his interest isnât something thatâll disappear so easily. Instead, think of a way to properly seduce the Grand Duke. If youâre going to be his mistress, you may as well become a long-lasting and well-loved one. If you want your life to be at least a little more comfortable, youâd best keep my words in mind.â
It was advice delivered sincerelyâas if he were speaking from the heart of a father who had raised Eleanor as his daughter for the past ten years.
That âsincerityâ was laughable and revolting. Eleanor clenched her teeth.
ââŠYes, Father.â
When she answered obediently, the Duke of Astria dismissed her with a flick of his hand, as if she were a nuisance.
She didnât want to see his face any longer than necessary either, so Eleanor bowed politely and immediately turned to leave.
Tap tap tap!
As she opened the study door and stepped out, she faintly heard hurried footsteps growing distant down the hall.
Eleanor quickly walked in the direction of the sound.
At the edge of her vision, she caught a glimpse of a fluttering, ornate dress hem disappearing around the corner.
There was only one person in the mansion who wore such dressesâNora.
Did she overhear the conversation I had with Father?
If not, there was no reason for Nora to be running away like that.
Eleanor mentally reviewed their conversation to check if anything dangerous had been said. Thankfully, there was nothing too sensitive.
Still, she couldnât help but wonder what had sent Nora fleeing in such a rush. But she didnât chase her.
There was no need to. Eleanor already knew that Nora was sufferingâand that she would continue to suffer even more.
And things will only get worse from here on.
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Tap tap, tap tap!
Noraâs hurried footsteps echoed through the corridor, while moonlight from the windows illuminated her path.
Her golden hair whipped behind her as the Duke of Astriaâs cold, commanding voice echoed in her ears.
âAsk Grand Duke Royster what heâs willing to offer in return for taking the Astria lady as his mistress.â
Eleanorâas someoneâs mistress.
Nora had come to understand just how much noble society valued honor. She now knew how scandalous it was for the daughter of a high noble to become a manâs mistress.
But this⊠this was not the outcome she had hoped for.
Itâs not enough!
Yes. It was far from enough. Compared to what Nora had wantedâit was nothing.
She had wished for Eleanor to meet with something far more painful. Something much more humiliating. Something that could not be compared.
Not a warm, comfortable mistressâs life!
Eleanor was unlike other noblesâshe didnât care about honor or reputation. Nora knew this better than anyone.
So what pain would she really feel from becoming a mistress? Most likely, sheâd welcome the Dukeâs decision with open arms.
âIs this what you nobles call elegance and nobility? If so, Iâd rather stay a base, ignorant commoner a hundred times over.â
At the dinner party hosted by Kiaraâs household, Grand Duke Royster had openly defended Eleanor. Maybe it was just to spite Arlo, but to Nora, it was clear he had feelings for Eleanor.
He had paid for her debutante gown. He had saved her from attackers. He had repeatedly helped her.
What kind of torment could possibly come from ending up with a man like that?
Maybe if it were fate⊠then perhaps.
Bang!
From the Dukeâs study to her own room, Nora had run nonstopâuntil she slammed the door shut behind her.
Her eyes darted around the room without knowing what they were searching for, wide and cold.
This room, used only by the princesses of the Astria familyâfilled with beautiful, antique furniture, extravagantly framed paintings, and floral decorations that changed with the seasons.
But then, her eyes froze.
Her gaze had landed on the vanity mirrorâwhere a ghost-like, empty reflection stared back at her.
Nora dragged her heavy steps toward the mirror and stood before it.
She saw a beautiful face. Silky hair carefully styled, lips tinted a lovely red, glittering earrings adorning her ears.
It was the face she had always dreamed of. Yet, it was different from the innocent fantasy sheâd had as a child.
Why did the expression that should be glowing like spring sunshine look so lifeless? Why were those eyes, which should be shining like stars, filled only with envy and jealousy? Why were the cheeks, which should be flushed with joy, instead marked with bruises and scratches?
Slowly, Nora reached up and touched her cheek. The moment her fingers brushed her skin, a dull ache spread again.
The one who had left the purplish bruise on her cheekâwas none other than the Duke of Astria. The marks from when he slapped her days ago had yet to fade.
And the scratch across her faceâthat one was fresh.
âHow dare someone like you mock me?!â
That was what her fiancé, Arlo, had shouted before throwing a teacup at her.
It was absurd. All she had done was visit him during his recovery and express concern for his condition. But Arlo, consumed by inferiority and distrust, had exploded in rage and thrown whatever was within reach.
If she hadnât leaned back in time, she couldâve been seriously injured. Thankfully, it only drew a small bead of blood.
Ironically, just ten minutes later, Arlo had softened completely, as if nothing had happened.
âIâm sorry, Nora. I lost my temper for a second. You know youâre the only one I have. So please⊠think before you speak. Every word matters, you know?â
Was that an apology or a scolding?
Nora was angryâembarrassed evenâbut she didnât show it. She knew what would happen if she did: heâd explode again.
Since the hotel attack, Arlo had become unpredictable. His emotions bounced wildly, and his violence had worsened.
The physician said it was normalâan expected change after traumaâand insisted that as his future wife, it was Noraâs duty to support him emotionally. To soothe and comfort him.
âAnd Iâm supposed to do that for the rest of my life?â
Her lovely face in the mirror twisted with disgust.
Suddenly, a certain refined voice echoed in her mind.
âDo you still believe the pain is temporary and the position is forever?â
Eleanorâs voice. Her expression wasnât joyful but rather filled with pity as her eyes swept across Noraâs bruises and cut lips.
How humiliating.
Noraâs fingers dug harder into her cheek. Her perfectly manicured nails pricked her skin.
âIâm⊠Iâm happy.â
Yes. This was happiness. So what if she was occasionally hit? It didnât happen often, and it wasnât too severe. At least she didnât have to starve or freeze to death.
She didnât have to become someoneâs second wife. She wasnât going to be anyoneâs mistress. One day, sheâd be empress of this empire.
What greater happiness could there be?
So, the actions that had taken Eleanorâs place were certainly the right thing to do.
Nora continued to justify it to herself. She repeated that she was happy more than ten times, like a prayer.
But her whispered affirmations were so faint that they were quickly drowned out by the loud voice banging at her door.
Bang! Bang, bang!
âNora! I know youâre in there! Come out, just for a second, okay?â
This was the third time this week that Damian had come all the way to her bedroom.
She hadnât even opened the door once, yet she could already smell the alcohol on his breath.
âCome on! Are you really going to do this to me?!â
Nora stared blankly into the mirror. The woman in the reflection, dressed beautifully and holding her cheek, felt both familiar and repulsive.
âOpen up! Or I swear, Iâll tell everyone!â
When the threats began, Nora finally turned and slowly walked to the door.
She flung it open.
âAck! N-Nora!â
âYaaawn⊠Damian, what is it at this hour? You startled me out of sleep.â
She let out a slow, drawn-out yawn, lips slightly parted in faked sleepiness, her eyes curved sweetly into a smile. A smile that hadnât been anywhere near the mirror.
âO-oh! Were you sleeping? I thought you were avoiding meâŠâ
âAvoiding you? I’ve just been busy lately. No reason for me to avoid you on purpose.â
âRight, right? But youâve been so busy?â
âOf course. You know how hectic things are with Arloâs condition.â
At the mention of Arlo, Damianâs face immediately soured.
Why waste time nursing that useless patient? Itâs not like that thing down there was ever going to work again.
Normally, heâd let it goâbut the alcohol made him bold.
Frustrated, Damian suddenly grabbed her wrist.
âNora. So when exactly are you going to be ready?â
Nora glanced around. Thankfully, the servants had gotten the message and disappeared. No one seemed to have heard his outburst.
âAnswer me! How much longer do I have to wait?!â
Damian, though smaller and thinner than the Duke of Astria, was quick to anger, just like his father.
In fact, now that she thought about itâmost of the men around her were like that. All except oneâthey were arrogant, selfish, and violent.
Her wrist throbbed with pain, but she didnât flinch. She was used to this kind of pain now.
But that gazeâthe one looking down on herâwas still unbearably disgusting.
So Nora made up her mind.
âCalm down, Dami. Youâre going to have me all to yourself soon anyway. Why rush?â
Once I become Empress, Iâm going to kill you.
âW-WhatâŠ?â
âCome on, think about it. Arloâs⊠well, letâs just say heâs not exactly âfunctionalâ anymore. Who else would I turn to but you?â
Pretending to offer her body⊠only to crush his skull in when the time came.
âThen why havenât you been seeing me lately?â
âWell, itâs not the right time yet. That incident at Hotel Mercedes only happened recently. If I suddenly started ignoring Arlo, everyone would call me a wicked woman. Even my father would be furious.â
Nora smiled sweetlyâwhile vividly imagining ripping the man before her to pieces.
Mel telling yourself that⊠and when u lived for another decade in Eleanorâs place keys see what u will say