#14. Daily Life (2)
Thanks to Sasha, who pulled his blanket off early every morning, Pavel had become a morning person.
Whenever he refused to touch the food he disliked, Sasha would scoop it herself and press the spoon against his lips.
Even when he asked to be left alone, she would take his hand and lead him outside to exercise.
So this time would be no different.
If he kept resisting, it wouldnât end well.
Sasha would simply get up, snatch the spoon from his hand, load it with soup, and shove it into his mouth.
âIf thatâs how itâs going to be, Iâd rather just eat it myself.â
With a deep sigh, Pavel put the spoon in his mouth.
He swallowed it without breathing, but the taste of broccoli lingered on his tongue.
âUgh.â
He had no trouble taking bitter medicine, but broccoliâthat, he couldnât handle.
He gulped down water to wash out the nauseating flavor.
ââŠâŠâ
Pavel moved like a sloth.
It felt like an eternity just to bring another spoonful to his mouth.
His body language screamed reluctance.
âHm.â
Sasha stared at him and commented,
âPavel, youâre a picky eater, huh?â
ââŠâŠ!â
Pavel glared at her with wide eyes.
He hated being treated like a child, and the word “picky eater” felt unbearably childish to him.
Sasha giggled inside but kept her expression serious.
âStill a kid, huh? Donât like bell peppers, donât like carrots, and now even broccoli?â
âShut up.â
âWow, even when I was a kid, I wasnât that picky. So that means youâre even younger than a kid⊠Youâre a baby. Yep, Baby Pavel.â
The more Sasha teased, the more Pavelâs face scrunched up.
âUghâŠ!â
He looked absolutely furious.
But instead of swearing like he used to, Pavel clenched his lips and bowed his head.
Then, with a determined expression, he began eating the soup aggressively.
When he finally finished, he set the spoon down with a thud.
ââŠI ate it all. Happy now?â
âGot it.â
Sasha quickly replied, smiling sweetlyâthough she mentally added,
âWeâll need to add table manners to the curriculum too.â
Luckily for Pavel, the broccoli soup was the hardest part of the meal.
The rest wasnât so bad, and he finished quietly.
Sasha watched, pleased.
She looked forward to the day Pavel would fill out with some healthy weight.
âŠâŠâŠ
âPavel, did you brush your teeth?â
As soon as Sasha entered his room, she asked.
Knowing sheâd drag him to the bathroom if he didnât answer, Pavel gave a tired nod.
âGood. Then letâs sleep. Sleeping early helps you grow taller, clears your skin, improves memoryâbasically, itâs all good.â
She tucked him into bed, pulling the blanket up to his chin.
Then she lay down beside him where he could see her.
Sasha had started sleeping beside him after learning he had severe insomnia.
She believed his weakened state was partly from chronic lack of sleep.
Since rest was the best medicine, Sasha tried everything to help him sleep.
Sometimes she told fun stories from her past life. Other times she sang lullabies.
Pavel would grumble that it was childish, but he always listened quietly.
Though it took time to fall asleep, once he did, a soft smile would appear on his face.
Seeing that peaceful expression made Sasha forget all about her sore throat from talking so much each night.
There was one thing she never skipped.
âHand.â
ââŠâŠâ
Pavel silently placed his hand in hers.
Their fingers intertwined tightly.
At first, Pavel recoiled from the contact, but eventually, he got used to it and accepted her presence.
Sasha was proud.
She believed warmth and touch were the best ways to connect emotionally.
She always held hands during important conversations, and this nightly ritual had the same purpose.
Ever since their first night sharing a bed, not once had she failed to hold his hand.
âGood night,â Sasha whispered.
Pavel didnât answer, but his fluttering eyelashes gave him awayâhe wasnât asleep yet.
Still, Sasha didnât scold him.
She just began to sing gently, hoping it would carry him off into dreamland.
Hopefully peaceful, happy dreamsânot nightmares about death.
âŠâŠâŠ
Late at night, Pavel opened his eyes.
It wasnât surprisingâhe was used to waking from shallow sleep.
Since learning of his illness at age five, he had never truly slept deeply.
The pain would visit anytimeâday, night, even during the stillest hours of dawn.
Tonight was no exception.
ââŠâŠ!â
Pavel gritted his teeth.
It felt like large needles were stabbing his whole body.
His head felt crushed by stones. His eyes felt like they would pop out.
âUghâŠâ
Instead of screaming, he bit back a whimper.
Crying out wouldn’t change anything.
All it would earn him were contemptuous stares from annoyed adults.
So he stayed silent, and learned to endure alone.
That kind of soul-deep loneliness had become as familiar as the pain.
It was all routine to himâuntil tonight.
âMmâŠâ
A faint stir from beside him made his eyelids twitch.
He rolled his body slightly.
Something felt off.
ââŠâŠâ
He stared at the white hand tightly holding his own.
His gaze shifted sideways.
There she was.
A small girl sleeping beside him.
Moonlight streamed in through the half-open curtain and spilled across the bed.
He could see Sashaâs face clearlyâpeaceful and serene in her sleep.
âClick.â
Pavel clicked his tongue.
Her annoyingly pretty face didnât sit right with him.
âAleksandra Arban.â
Technically, she was now Aleksandra Volkov, but he still wasnât used to that name.
He never expected to have a wifeâlet alone a Volkov one.
His father and uncle, both widowed early, had never remarried. He assumed he’d be the same.
And yetâŠ
There she wasâthis woman who had become Aleksandra Volkov, though the name Arban still suited her better.
Even her name, soft in both script and sound, matched her appearance.
Her gentle smile, always intact no matter how curt he was, also came to mind.
That thought annoyed him.
âGet a grip, Pavel Volkov.â
He stared at her.
She meddled constantlyâhe should be furious just looking at her.
So why did this strange, warm feeling well up inside him?
He frowned.
Grinding his teeth, he thought:
There was one thing he had to make clear.
He did not like this woman, Aleksandra Arban.
She was just a hollow bride, bought with money by a cold-hearted father trying to get rid of him.
She wasnât even obedientâalways argued back, treated him like a child, annoyed him all day.
She barged into his quiet life and turned it upside down.
There was absolutely nothing about her to like.
So then why⊠was he letting her do all this?
He couldâve pushed her away.
Yelled, fought, thrown a tantrum.
But he hadnât.
Lying there, frowning in thought, Pavel watched her sleeping face in the moonlight.
He recalled everything: their conversations, the way she looked at himâŠ
And he realized.
He wasnât able to treat Sasha the way he treated everyone else.
Because she was different.
Before his behavior ever changedâshe treated him differently.
Everyone else either pitied and ignored him or mocked him.
They called him the poor, doomed heir of House Volkov.
Their cheap sympathy only enraged him.
He wanted to destroy everything.
The smug nobles, the useless doctors, the cursed world that wouldnât let him grow up.
But with herâ
Her pure eyes calmed him.
She pitied his pain, not him.
It wasnât sympathy. It was concern.
The moment he realized that, he couldnât push her away anymore.
She barged into his roomâŠ
Restructured his lifeâŠ
Crawled into his bed and sang lullabies only a long-forgotten mother mightâve sungâŠ
And alwaysâalwaysâreached out to touch him.
And Pavel couldnât bring himself to shove her away.
Even when her presence resurfaced memories he wanted to forget.
Even if everything she did annoyed himâ
He couldnât reject her, simply because⊠it was Sasha.