~Chapter 11~
It had only been a year for me, but five years had passed in this world. Yet, everything looked just the same. It felt strange that nothing had changed.
As if time had stopped, this place looked exactly like I remembered. I paused without thinking and stared at the garden.
If the servant hadnāt looked at me as if asking, āWhy arenāt you following?ā I mightāve stood there lost in memories.
āThe Marquis used to change the garden every year for Serel⦠why does it look the same?ā
Marquis Valandier was famous for being a devoted husband. After his wife died giving birth to their daughter, he cherished Serel more than his own life. His love for her grew even more after she returned from being sold into slavery. One of his habits was changing the garden each year.
āā¦Did something happen?ā
Just the fact that the real Livia Arfin had returned must have been a huge shock for the Marquis. I couldnāt help but worry.
āYou may wait here.ā
I nodded at the servantās words and quietly sat on the sofa.
Since Iād crouched for so long, my legs ached.
I was glad I kept up with rehab. If I hadnāt, even walking like this wouldāve been difficult.
While patting my sore legs, I looked around the familiar reception room.
I used to come here often because of Serel, so it didnāt feel unfamiliar.
The paintings on the wall, the ornaments on the side table, the grand chandelier everyone admiredā
Even the jewel-encrusted sword above the fireplace was still there. The only thing different was the sofa I was sitting on.
It really felt like time hadnāt passed here.
āIf thatās the caseā¦ā
I cautiously approached the fireplace.
Below the sword was a small scratch, made by something sharp. It was still there.
I gently touched the mark with my fingertips.
āHe left this here too.ā
The unchanged mansion, Aldinās reaction when I said I was the Marquisās āonly true friendāāeverything had gone according to plan, but it still felt a little strange.
Clickā
The door to the reception room opened.
I instinctively turned my head toward the sound.
ā¦
ā¦
Neatly tied light brown hair, kind eyes, and the familiar mustache like a trademark.
Just like the mansion, he hadnāt changed at all.
He entered with a bit of nervousness, but when he saw me, he froze.
Our eyes met.
I knew I should greet him, but for some reason, no words came out.
He, too, looked shocked and then slowly furrowed his brow.
I knew that look ā it was how he looked when he was sure about something but didnāt have proof.
I slowly raised my hand and waved at him.
I had planned to smile brightly and say hello, but my lips kept trembling.
āHi, Babel.ā
ā…!ā
He couldnāt recognize me by appearance, but only I, aside from his late wife, had ever called him that special nickname.
I wanted to speak naturally, but my voice shook and sounded awful.
Still, maybe he understood. He gasped, then ran to me without hesitation ā like someone who had just found irrefutable proof.
āIs it really you?ā
āYeah.ā
āReally? Are you⦠the one I knowā¦?ā
āYes, Babel. Iām the Livia you remember.ā
I clenched my hands to stop them from shaking and forced my voice to stay firm.
He grabbed my shoulders with trembling hands, then flinched and let go.
āWhat happened⦠youāve gotten so thinā¦ā
Tears welled up in his kind eyes.
I expected him to cry ā he was always soft-hearted ā but seeing his tears still startled me.
āI thought Iād never see you againā¦ā
Watching him sob made my own eyes sting.
I clenched my jaw to hold back my tears and helped the staggering Marquis to sit.
āI thought so too⦠but Iām back, arenāt I?ā
Even at my awkward words, he sat on the sofa and cried for a long time ā tears and snot everywhere.
He wept like a child, which didnāt suit his age, but I knew heād always been like this, so I just waited quietly.
Patting his back, handing him tissues ā it all felt familiar.
āSniff⦠ahem!ā
Finally, after blowing his nose, he calmed down. He looked embarrassed, avoiding my gaze with his swollen eyes.
Understanding how he felt, I just smiled and acted like nothing happened.
āI must have shown you a sorry sight.ā
āItās okay. I almost cried too.ā
āBut you didnāt.ā
āI was close.ā
āBut you didnāt cry in the end.ā
āShould I cry now then?ā
āNo, thatās fine.ā
With his pouting lips and sniffling, I wondered if this man was really in his 40s.
Thanks to his youthful looks, it didnāt seem too odd.
āI really didnāt think Iād see you again.ā
āMe neither⦠I didnāt think Iād ever be able to.ā
āBut⦠I always hoped maybe one day.ā
The Marquis looked at me with a cracked voice and said while glancing around the unchanged reception room:
āI left everything the same so it wouldnāt feel unfamiliar if you ever returned.ā
It was strange that a rich family hadnāt changed anything in five years.
Knowing it was because of me made my heart ache.
āWhy go that far? What if I never came back?ā
āWell⦠Serel wanted it too.ā
āSerelā¦ā
āYes. She missed you terribly. Said we should at least keep the memories.ā
I remembered the little girl who had followed āLivia Arfin,ā the one who had once sold her into slavery, like a real sister.
Maybe from the trauma, or as a defense mechanism, the girl had forgotten all about her kidnapping.
Three years was a long, heavy time for a child. So I told her every day: this was her home, and no one would ever hurt her again.
She didnāt remember that the Marquis was her real father, so we had to rebuild everything from scratch.
Together, the Marquis and I helped her adjust to a new life, and Serel gave me all her love in return.
āI heard sheās grown a lot. Iām glad sheās healthy.ā
āShe grows day by day. But youā¦ā
He looked at me with pity.
Knowing I looked rough, I fiddled with my hair.
This time, I came here in my body ā not as a possession.
My appearance, so different from the goddess-like Livia, made me feel embarrassed.
āThe way I look⦠itās not great, right? This is the real me.ā
Even though I knew he wouldnāt be disappointed, I couldnāt meet his eyes. Compared to Livia, I felt small.
But surprisingly, the Marquis asked something I didnāt expect.
āā¦Did it hurt a lot?ā
That question carried many meanings.
I understood his heart easily, but the words āIām fineā got stuck in my throat.
When I didnāt answer, he gave a bitter smile ā as if he already knew without needing to hear it.
His smile quickly faded. It wasnāt fake ā it was the face of someone trying not to cry again.
āOf course it hurt⦠I shouldnāt have asked such a thing.ā
My mouth felt dry and heavy.
One year was hell for me, but for him, who suddenly lost a close friend, five years couldnāt have been easy either.
He looked at me with mixed emotions, then suddenly gasped and spoke.
āWe shouldnāt be just standing here. You look like you havenāt rested properly. Letās leave this talk for tomorrow. You should get some good rest today.ā
Days of travel without food or rest flashed through my mind.
I mustāve looked like a mess, so I nodded quietly.
As I was about to follow him, I carefully brought up something I had held in all this time.
āā¦Babel.ā
āYes, my lady?ā
āā¦How is he?ā
There was only silence.
āā¦Is he⦠doing well?ā
Did what hurt? Being gone? Or does she have visible scars?