Chapter 30
āSo please, pity me just a little.ā
He looked up at me and gently took my hand, placing it against his cheek.
A lukewarm warmth seeped through my palm as it touched his smooth skin.
āBack then, whenever you comforted me, you always cupped my cheek like this.ā
Resting his cheek in my hand, he slowly closed his eyes.
āI really liked it.ā
Sunlight streaming through the window poured down, casting his beautiful face in a pale glow.
His eyelashes, glistening white under the light, cast delicate shadows over his eyes.
āUh⦠A-Akesā¦ā
It was the first time I realized that if someone is overwhelmingly beautiful, it could actually be hazardous to your heart.
Even when Akes was younger, I had vaguely thought heād break hearts when he grew up. But I didnāt expect Iād be one of them!
As I called out his name, almost in tears, Akes blinked a few times and smiled faintly as he slowly straightened up.
āBy the way, how long are you planning to stay here, Einra?ā
Settling himself beside me, Akes tilted his head and asked.
I felt briefly relieved at the change of topic and tapped my cheek thoughtfully.
āHmm⦠Since the reason I came down here is gone now, I should probably head back to the capital soon, right?ā
āI noticed your house in the capital was already sold. Do you have somewhere to go?ā
āAh, well⦠I suppose staying in a hotel until I find a new place would be best.ā
If I told the Emperor, heād probably pester me endlessly to stay in the palace. It seemed wiser to quietly stay at a hotel until I found a house.
Just as I was settling on the hotel idea, Akes asked casually,
āThen, Einra, how about staying at the Grand Dukeās residence?ā
āThe Grand Dukeās? You mean your house?ā
I blinked in surprise, and Akes nodded.
āYes. The place is huge and has plenty of guest rooms, so it wouldnāt be uncomfortable for you.ā
āWould that really be okay? Iād feel like Iām imposing too muchā¦ā
āYou know Iām cursed. Being near you helps me feel at ease, so Iām asking for your help. You donāt need to feel burdened.ā
āButā¦ā
āEinra, hmm?ā
He gave me a sweet, pleading smile.
That look was too adorableāI nodded before I even realized it.
āMm, alright. Iāll stay at the Grand Dukeās place for a while.ā
Hearing my answer, Akes lit up like someone had given him the whole world.
āIām so happy, Einra.ā
Imperial Office ā Emperor Elberk
As the recorded voice finished playing, the light within the crystal orb faded.
It had been a report from Akes regarding Grand Duke Baharman.
āAh, my foolish uncle. Not only did he kidnap Grand Duchess Serenia at the ball, but he cursed her, and even failed twice in trying to assassinate her.ā
The Emperorās pink eyes curved in amusement.
āBy now, he must be absolutely fuming.ā
With a snicker, the Emperor crossed his legs and sank deeper into the back of his chair.
āHeās probably throwing things at his servants for bringing him bad news. Typical.ā
Tilting his head lazily, he rested his chin on the armrest.
His navy-blue hair, the color of the night sky, slipped gently over his shoulder.
He felt not a shred of pity for the enraged Grand Duke Baharman.
Whenever you set something in motion, thorough preparation is essential.
He had set things into motion without considering failureāit was only natural he would fall.
āThere are all kinds of cause-and-effect relationships in this world, dear foolish uncle.ā
The Emperor scoffed and turned his gaze to the person standing beside him: Violetti.
āSo, Count Chevilla. When exactly is your lord planning to return to the capital?ā
āI apologize, Your Majesty. He is expected to return soon, but he hasnāt given an exact date, so I canāt provide a definite answer.ā
āOf course. Heās waited five whole years to see Einra again. Who wouldnāt want to be with her as much as possible? I, being the magnanimous Emperor, shall endure.ā
With a mischievous sparkle in his eyes, the Emperor gave a boyish grin.
āStill, the day I finally get to see our Einra again is just around the corner. Iām sure sheāll be arriving with Grand Duke Serenia, right?ā
Guess Iāll have to freeze all real estate deals in the capital for a while.
Iāll make sure Einra stays in the palace. Maybe Iāll offer her the empty Empressās quarters.
The Emperor pondered gleefully.
Of course, the chance of that actually happening was close to zero.
Night had fallen before I realized it.
I was reading a book in the living room with Akes when nervous tension slowly started building inside me.
āā¦What should I do? Are we sleeping together again tonight?ā
Akes had told me he was plagued by nightmares. That was why I offered to sleep beside him.
āBut heās an adult now!ā
If he still looked like little As, Iād still feel a bit awkward, but not this conflicted.
But now, I was sharing a room with a full-grown man!
Even if nothing suggestive was going on!
āā¦ā
I kept sneaking glances at Akes across from me, who was calmly reading an academic tome.
He mustāve noticed, because he looked up and met my gaze.
āEinra?ā
Startled, I quickly shook my head.
āN-No, itās nothing!ā
āAlright,ā he replied with a slight laugh and turned back to his book.
Flustered, I quickly raised my book to hide my flushed face.
āWas I staring too obviouslyā¦?ā
He had caught on way too fast.
Trying to calm myself down behind the book, I took a few deep breaths, then cautiously lowered it.
āUm, hey, Akes.ā
āYes, Einra?ā
He smiled brightly as our eyes met again.
My face heated up again under his red gaze.
I rolled my eyes around, struggling to find the right words.
āAbout tonightā¦ā
āTonight?ā
Akes blinked in surprise, clearly caught off guard.
His reaction somehow made me feel even more embarrassed, but I pushed through and continued.
āI⦠Iāve been helping you sleep lately, right? But now⦠wellā¦ā
āIs it because Iām an adult now? Is it uncomfortable for you?ā
His eyes lowered slightly in disappointment.
Startled, I frantically shook my head.
āN-No! Thatās not it! I just thought maybe weād both be uncomfortableā¦ā
āIām not uncomfortable at all. In fact, I havenāt had any nightmares, which is great. But⦠if youāre uncomfortable, Iāll stop.ā
He bit his lip gently and looked up at me again, offering a soft smile.
āIāll try my best. To endure the nightmares, and the pain. Iām really good at enduring things⦠right after not taking my eyes off you.ā
āAkesā¦ā
āSo donāt worry about me.ā
His smile felt tinged with sadness, and my chest ached.
āI used to sleep next to As all the time. This is just to help someone whoās afraid of nightmares⦠It should be fine, right?ā
Itās not like weāre snuggling or anythingājust sleeping in the same space!
The more I thought about it, the more it seemed okay.
Resolved, I looked at Akes with determination.
āNo, Akes. Iām not uncomfortable at all. Letās sleep together.ā
āā¦Really? Youāre sure itās okay?ā
āOf course!ā
I clenched my fists and gave a firm answer.
He blinked as if receiving an unexpected gift, then broke into a radiant smile.
āThank you, Einra. Iām so happy youāre not uncomfortable around me.ā
āD-Donāt get so excited over something like thatā¦ā
Embarrassed, I scratched my cheek awkwardly. Akes tilted his head, puzzled.
āBut Einra not avoiding meāthatās everything to me.ā
āā¦ā
His voice held a quiet certainty, as if it were the most natural thing in the world.
My face burned, and my heart throbbed at the same time.
How could something so small mean everything?
Shouldnāt he want more?
āIt must be because of that long misunderstandingā¦ā
The misunderstanding with Akes had stretched for five whole years, ever since that disastrous āblack historyā and the sudden war with the Semel tribe.
If only we had just talked, it could have been resolved so easily.
But war got in the wayāand for five years!
Though it was my fault for reacting poorly to his sudden confession back then, I now owed him.
And if just being beside him at night could help keep the nightmares awayā
How could I not do it?
āā¦Akes.ā
āYes?ā
āIāll protect you. I wonāt let you have any more nightmares.ā
With a determined look, I raised my fists again.
Looking at me with warmth, Akes responded with a smile in his voice.
āIāll trust only you, Einra.ā