Chapter 27
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âHaha, itâs bedtime now, isnât it? Yeah, it is. So letâs talk tomorrow insteadâŠâ
I laughed awkwardly, trying to carefully pull my hand away from Achesâ grasp.
Perhaps displeased, he furrowed his brows slightly and tightened his grip, pushing me down onto the bed.
â…!â
My body fell softly onto the sheets.
A heavy weight followed. He leaned his large torso over me.
His elegantly wavy black hair cascaded down, tickling my cheek.
âTomorrow is too far away, Einra.â
He whispered softly.
âWe have so much to talk about.â
A strange uneasiness washed over meâlike a hunted prey sensing its predator.
Not knowing what I was even saying, I blurted out the first thing that came to mind.
âT-The room! The roomâs messyâI have to clean it! Thereâs a, a corpse tooâŠ!â
âAhh.â
Murmuring faintly, Aches lifted his body away slightly.
For a moment I thought he understood and felt a flicker of hopeâuntil he reached for a small ornamental sculpture on the nightstand. With a small surge of aura, he activated it.
In an instant, the chaotic room returned to its pristine state, as if time had rewound.
Stunned, I stared blankly at him.
After placing the sculpture back, he looked down at me with a soft smile.
âI used a cleaning-type magical tool. I have the same one at home.â
ââŠâŠâ
Well, that made sense.
Aches was one of the few allies of Harnen, so it wasnât strange for him to have the same tool I owned.
Especially since the original purpose of that artifact was âevidence elimination.â
A spell tool that resets a space to its designated time and state, while erasing all residual traces created after that time.
âŠAlthough it was gifted to me under the pretense of being a “cleaning tool.”
âB-But if you use that, the remains of the deceasedâŠâ
âYou donât have to worry about that. Assassins donât get funerals anyway.â
He said this plainlyâas the leader of the assassins.
âBut stillâŠâ
There were so many questions I wanted to askâbut not now.
I shifted to move away from him, and the smile slowly faded from his face.
ââŠDonât go.â
His large hand grabbed a handful of my hair.
âWhy do you keep trying to avoid me?â
He slowly leaned down toward me again.
His long black hair draped down like ink soaking into the bed.
In the pouring moonlight, his long lashes cast shadows around his eyes, deepening the decadent aura.
His hand, once tangled in my hair, now brushed my cheek.
âIs it because you donât like me?â
His breath grazed my skin.
Thoughts swirled chaotically in my mind.
I struggled to compose myself and finally opened my mouth.
âAches, itâs not thatâŠâ
âIf itâs not that, then I canât understand why you keep avoiding me.â
He tilted his head gently.
âIf itâs not because you dislike me, then why?â
âB-BecauseâŠâ
I tried to come up with an excuse, but my lips only moved silently before I gave up.
How could Iâsomeone who wasnât even that brazenâtell him to his face that being this close to him makes my heart race like itâll explode because it feels⊠too intimate?
âThis is crazyâŠâ
I felt like crying.
When I avoided his gaze, he fell silent for a moment, then looked at me with cold eyes.
âItâs okay, Einra.â
âH-Huh?â
His hand slid from my cheek down to my lips, gently stroking them.
âYou told me yourself. Even if I slept next to you, you wouldnât hate me.â
âTh-ThatâŠâ
As I reflexively opened my mouth, I quickly shut it again.
My instincts screamed: Donât say âThat was meant for little Asâ!
âThatâs enough for me.â
For now.
He added in a low voice and gave a faint smile.
ââŠWhat do you mean “for now”? Enough for what? Whatâs for now supposed to mean?â
My brain was overheating.
I was frozen stiffâcouldnât even lift a finger.
âYou know, Einra?â
His drowsy voice slipped into my ear.
âI have nightmares every night.â
I flinched at his calm confession.
ââŠNightmares?â
âWhen I have them, itâs so terrifying and painful.â
His fingers, once brushing my lips, now ran through my hair.
âI couldnât take it anymore and went to find you⊠and you said youâd let me sleep. That you wouldnât hate me for it. That you wouldnât regret it.â
His face began to show traces of sorrow.
âI only believed those wordsâŠâ
ââŠâŠâ
âYou said youâd never hate me. I was content just being near you⊠but then you made me hope for more.â
ââŠâŠâ
âAnd now that youâre avoiding meâwhat am I supposed to do?â
His gaze met mine.
For a moment, I couldnât breathe.
As if bewitched, I couldnât look away.
âDo you regret offering to sleep beside me⊠now that you know As is actually Aches?â
He asked with heartbreaking sadness.
A faint shimmer of tears pooled over his red eyes, like drops of wine.
My mind was still overloadedâbut the moment I saw those tears, everything else vanished, and only one thought remained:
âI need to comfort Aches!â
âN-NoâŠ! I donât regret it at all!â
I cried out desperately.
But instead of stopping, Aches lowered his eyes gloomily.
ââŠLiar.â
âI-Iâm not lying!â
âYouâre clearly trying so hard to avoid me.â
Finally, the tears spilled down his cheeks.
Panicking, I reached out both hands and wiped them away.
âNo! Iâm not avoiding you! I donât want to avoid you at all!â
At my shout, his red eyesâonce downcastâslowly lifted to meet mine.
ââŠReally?â
âYeah, really!â
âYou wonât avoid me anymore?â
âNope! I promise I wonât.â
âAnd you wonât regret it?â
âNever! No regrets!â
I nodded furiously, affirming every word.
A gentle smile slowly spread across his face as he looked down at me.
âEinra, you said that.â
âUh-huh.â
I nodded again.
Now that the situation was under control, a creeping sense of unease began to return.
But seeing Aches smile so brightly in joy made that unease fade.
âYeah, whatâs the big deal. Itâs not like the worldâs ending or a warâs starting.â
As the whirlwind of tension settled, a sudden yawn escaped me.
Sleepiness, unnoticed until now, quietly overtook me.
âYaaawnâŠâ
My head felt heavy.
Blinking through tears brought by the yawn, I heard a gentle voice.
âEinra, are you sleepy?â
âMm-hmmâŠâ
âA lot happened today. No wonder youâre tired. Go to sleep. We can talk more tomorrow.â
His soft voice spilled into my ear like a lullaby.
I responded with a soft hum.
I wasnât even sure if I spoke aloud or just thought it.
My blinking slowed.
And like that, I drifted into sleep, listening to the sound of his heartbeat.
Whooshâ
The sound of birdsong brushed past my ears.
As soon as I registered it, the sunlight stabbed at my eyes.
âMmmâŠâ
I burrowed deeper into the blanket, but memories of the night before suddenly returned.
âGasp.â
I sat up abruptly.
Last night⊠I fell asleep with As.
Then I woke up from a strange dream, got out of bed feeling thirstyâŠ
ââŠAnd found a scene drenched in blood.â
And As turned out to be Aches.
Aches, who didnât shy away from me.
âŠNow that I thought about it, it sounded completely unreal.
Maybe it was all just a dream?
I glanced toward the spot where Aches had been.
He was gone.
ââŠSo it was just a dream.â
Maybe I had dreamed that ambiguous blend of hope and fear because I didnât want Aches to hate me.
That thought brought a strange emptiness to my chest.
Shaking my head to clear my thoughts, I got up from bed.
As soon as I stepped out of the room, the savory scent of food drifted up from downstairs.
I could hear the faint sound of something being chopped.
âAs?â
I muttered reflexively and quickly made my way to the first floor.