Chapter 5
Instinct.
No matter how human-like one appeared, it was a trait that never faded. It was the law of this world that prey naturally feared predators. So wasnāt it amusing, this audacious sheep?
Even living in the mountains, it was impossible not to know of the Ginevere Clanās wolves. I bore all their traits: silver hair that gleamed in moonlight and golden eyes that shone in the dark. The colors that defined me were far from commonācolors that unmistakably evoked a wolf.
āWho do you think I am?ā
Arenāt you afraid of me?
Did this bold sheep realize who stood before him, telling me not to fear him? Didierās eyes widened as he looked at me, then he lowered his head. Whether he was sulking or shy, I couldnāt tell. But the sight was undeniably endearing.
As I stared at him, waiting for a response, he began fidgeting with his hands. I couldnāt discern if he was deliberately acting cute. Hesitating, his lips moved slightly before he spoke.
āI⦠I know youāre a wolf, but Iām not scared.ā
Do I lack that much presence�
Never in my life had I considered myself lacking in authority, so my face twisted as if Iād heard something unthinkable. My last shred of pride crumpled along with it. Seeing my expression, Didier hurriedly spoke again.
āItās just⦠youāre badly hurt right now, so⦠Did I offend you?ā
āEven if Iām injured, Iām still a wolf.ā
āOhā¦ā
Didierās mouth opened slightly, his expression one of regret. His entire body radiated guilt over a mere slip of the tongue, and my response was already decided.
āItās fine. Youāre my lifesaver, after all.ā
āā¦Thatās a relief.ā
āBut arenāt you curious about me?ā
ā…!ā
With every word I spoke, Didierās expressions shifted vividly. His face dimmed noticeably, then brightened into a radiant smile. How could someoneās expressions be so varied? I had a strange certainty Iād soon see him cry as well.
āErika Ginevere, as you know, a wolf.ā
āErika⦠Lady Erika.ā
The way he said my name felt oddly ticklish. There was a peculiar joy and awe in his voice. Heād only just met me today and learned my name moments ago, yet his tone carried an emotion that felt centuries old.
āIs it just my imagination?ā
Strangely, I felt no urge to be wary of him. Was it because he seemed so harmless? Because he was a sheep? Or because he saved me?
Perhaps it was the surprisingly warm atmosphere of this cabin.
Puzzled, I continued.
āBy the way, I havenāt properly thanked you. Thank you for saving me, Didier.ā
āIt was only natural, Lady Erika.ā
āI know itās odd for me to say this, butā¦ā
āYes?ā
Didierās eyes widened as I hesitated.
āDonāt just save anyone like that. Itās dangerous.ā
Not the kind of thing to say to my rescuer.
People didnāt climb this mountain for noble reasons. Its treacherous terrain made it a haven for criminals hiding from justice.
There were small villages of beastmen at the mountainās base, but they moved frequently for food, rarely maintaining proper homes like this.
āā¦Now that I think about it, thatās a bit suspicious.ā
A flicker of unease stirred. But before I could dwell on it, Didier smiled brightly and said, āStill, I saved your life, Lady Erika. Thatās enough to make me happy.ā
I gazed at his radiant smile with a hint of suspicion before asking something that had puzzled me since I woke.
āIām truly grateful, but Iām curious. Why do you live here?ā
āOh! I was abandoned in these mountains as a child.ā
āAbandoned? So you live alone? That must be lonely.ā
āStrictly speaking, Iām not alone. I have a little friend here. Not a beastman, but this friend has kept me alive all this time.ā
His words seemed sincere. Indeed, these mountains were not only a refuge for criminals but also a place where children were sometimes abandoned. Most didnāt surviveāAnrendri Mountain was too harsh for the young.
But occasionally, some got lucky and survived.
āI misjudged himā¦ā
Softening my guarded gaze, I apologized.
āIām sorry for misunderstanding.ā
āNo, itās fine! Itās a situation where caution is warranted.ā
āEven so, I misjudged you. Iām sorry, Didier.ā
āItās okay, Lady Erika. Oh, are you thirsty? Iāll fetch some water and something to eat.ā
His actions, his bright smile, his warmthāthings Iād never seen in the clan.
As I stared at him, Didier waited patiently, perhaps thinking I had more to say.
āā¦Thank you, Didier.ā
A thank you for everythingāfor his warm smile, his kindness, and, though unspoken, for saving my life.
āā¦Me too.ā
Didier paused briefly before shyly muttering a response. It wasnāt quite fitting for a thank you, but before I could point it out, heād already turned away.
Watching him leave, I realized I was smilingāa strange occurrence.
In the clan, I never smiled, always maintaining my dignity as heir. Why was I smiling at someone Iād just met, whose secrets I didnāt know? It baffled me.
āI didnāt even let my guard down this easily with Mary, Rell, or Aren.ā
I needed to be more cautious. That was the right choice. Yet, unlike with others Iād met for the first time, I felt my walls crumbling. Strangely so.
āDid getting lost mess with my head?ā
Iād never felt this way even around those far weaker than me. Was Didierās pure nature affecting me?
Strange as it was, no answers came easily. Perhaps Iād overthought it. Physical exhaustion began to cloud my mind.
āI need to rethink my planā¦ā
Drowsiness, starting at the back of my head, overwhelmed me. My thoughts were swiftly swallowed by sleep.
Despite my tangled emotions, it was a peaceful slumber.
* * *
Chirrup! Chirp!
āAre you picking a fight with me? Huh?ā
Screech!
āKeep crying like that. See if your master cares.ā
The noise was grating, painfully so. High-pitched voices, as if arguing right above me, furrowed my brow.
āHey! You woke my master!ā
Chirrup!!
āBecause of me? Iād never do that to my master.ā
An unfamiliar birdsong clashed with a very familiar voice. Yes, a familiar voice. Though I wasnāt fully awake, my senses snapped alert. Sitting up abruptly, pain twisted my face again.
āUrgh!ā
Chirrup!
āYou done talking? Saying Iām fat and hurt the master? Hey!ā
āCoveā¦?ā
āMaster!ā
A black, ball-like creature bounced on my stomach. It was unmistakably my familiar, Cove. Cove, who shouldnāt be here.
My face contorted further, and Cove froze, studying me. Barely seconds after waking, I was at a loss, but I soon grasped the situation.
āWhy is Cove here?ā
Cove was supposed to be in Fatherās study, sending me signals. Yet here it was, in this cabin.
āDid it come because I missed a signal?ā
Given Coveās loyalty, it was plausible, but my orders took precedence. It shouldnāt have come here. And wasnāt this place too far for Cove to fly?
āThen how did it get here?ā
Trying to calm my confusion, I looked at Cove. It blinked its gem-like black eyes and spoke in a worried tone.
āMaster, are you in a lot of pain? You were badly hurt.ā
āā¦A little.ā
āA little? How is this a little?ā
Coveās incredulous gaze accompanied its tapping beak, expressing displeasure. It rubbed its beak with a wing, then flew to the side of a white sparrow.
The sparrow seemed vaguely familiar, yet new. But that wasnāt my priority.
āCove, why are you here?ā
āCaw! Master, Iām innocent!ā
āā¦Cove.ā
Appealing its innocence with sparkling eyes, Cove flew back onto my stomach.
āCove, I understand. Just tell me.ā
āMaster! Iām wronged. Your orders always come first!ā
āAnd?ā
āThat annoying birdās master summoned me here!ā
Coveās words plunged me into confusion once again.