Chapter 1
Prologue
[To Medeia,
I was so happy to get your quick reply, it felt like a stroke of luck. Honestly, when your reply didnât come for a while, I was worried that you had gotten tired of me. âŠ(omitted)âŠ
Do you perhaps have the same problem as me? I mean, when someone keeps forcing you to do things you donât want to do.
Recently, a woman has been bothering me even though I keep refusing her. Itâs really troublesome.
Is there a way to make her give up completely? (omitted)
With respect, always,
From Forest Keeper]
That was the letter she had recently received.
Kiria replied like this:
[To Forest Keeper,
Whoever she is, she really sounds like a leech, right? For someone like that, you should fight fire with fire.
Push them into a position where they have no choice but to refuse. Like saying: If you donât stop, then I wonât do this either.
I guarantee itâll work.
From Medeia.]
Her reply was short and to the point.
Unlike Forest Keeperâs letter that filled five whole pages, her reply didnât even cover half a page.
But that was just the âMedeiaâ style.
âPeople usually call this a second persona.â
Kiria had been exchanging letters with someone called âForest Keeperâ using her other name, âMedeia,â for over a year now.
She had no intention of revealing her real identity, and that man was the same.
After twelve months of letters, the only thing they knew about each other was their gender.
âOh, right. I also told him my eye color once.â
Sometimes, when she felt tired, she wanted to share her troubles with him.
Like why she came âhere,â or why she made this other persona.
âGood thing you didnât, Kiria.â
If she had confessed, she probably wouldâve been the one to stop writing letters first.
Because âMedeiaâ was the secret Kiria needed to protect in order to keep her freedom for research.
âAnyway⊠why is this letter still here? I thought I cleaned my desk last time.â
She shoved the letter and the rest of the desk clutter into a drawer.
Time was precious. She had things to do before the night was over.
âAlright then.â
Kiria kicked off her shoes and slipped on feather slippers.
They were made from the plucked feathers of a harpy. The poor harpy had cried from the forced molting, but when given an apple slice, she smiled happily again.
âThat was a good deal.â
Thanks to the slippers, Kiriaâs footsteps became silent like an assassinâs. She opened the old door and stepped into the hallway.
Hooâ
Her breath turned white in the freezing air.
The ancient castle in the middle of the forest was as cold as winter at night.
Carrying a small lamp, Kiria walked for a while until she stopped in front of a large, fancy bedroom door.
âPhew.â
Inside slept the final boss.
âExcuse me for intruding.â
She asked for forgiveness silently and entered.
On the bed, behind its curtains, lay a man with a face like a statue, sleeping defenselessly.
He was like a real-life Sleeping Beauty.
âThe medicine mustâve worked!â
He always had dark circles under his eyes and even suffered from insomnia.
So she had secretly slipped a sleeping aid into his tea.
He wouldnât drink it if she gave it directly, so she had to sneak it in.
Now he could sleep well, and she could accomplish her goal. A win-win.
While pulling things out of her bag, Kiria glanced at the man nervously.
His loose nightclothes revealed his collarbone and strong chest.
Even the blanket couldnât hide his broad, knightly build, trained through endless battles.
ââŠI want to touch it.â
Gulp.
âOh no, that sounded way too perverted!â
Luckily, he didnât wake up.
Shaking her head to clear her thoughts, Kiria carefully pulled out a sharp tool from her bag.
A syringe.
âJust once⊠Please, just this once, let me succeed!â
Resolute, she lifted the syringe and gently pulled back the blanket.
His sleeves were unusualâwide and long, covering his hands like traditional eastern clothes.
At first she almost asked if he was interested in Eastern culture, but now she knew the real reason.
ââŠHis left arm was the one not deformed, right?â
She chose the left, since the needle would just break against his right arm.
Slowly, she rolled up his sleeve, revealing a firm arm with veins standing out.
âWhy does this arm look so holy? Is it because heâs a former holy knight commander?â
Touching his arm felt like committing a crime.
âStop thinking nonsense. Just do it.â
She pressed along his inner arm to find a vein and was about to insert the syringe whenâ
âEek!â
His hand suddenly grabbed her wrist, yanking her forward.
She fell right into the gaze of his bored, crimson eyesâwide awake.
ââŠâŠ!â
Kiria was so shocked that sheâŠ
âHiccup.â
âŠstarted hiccuping.
ââŠâŠâ
He just stared at her, speechless.
Embarrassed, Kiria clapped her hands over her mouth. But her shoulders kept jerking with each hiccup.
Hic, hic.
âYou really are⊠something else.â
He sighed, then sat her up and patted her back.
âHic.â
âDrink some water.â
âThaâhicânk you.â
âHold your nose.â
She followed his instructions, pinched her nose, tilted her head back, and gulped down the water.
It spilled down her chin, but she kept drinking.
Sighing again, he handed her a handkerchief from the bedside table.
But instead, she wiped her mouth with her hand.
Silently, he put the handkerchief away and asked,
âAre you done hiccuping?â
âYes. But you scared me!â
Instead of apologizing, he calmly replied,
ââŠI was the one scared. Someone was touching me while I slept.â
âWh-why do you say it like that?! I just touched your arm a little!â
Ignoring her excuse, he asked,
âWhy did you sneak into my room?â
âI⊠got lost.â
âIn the middle of the night?â
âUm⊠yeahâŠâ
âThen why leave your own room?â
âThatâs⊠wellâŠâ
Cornered, Kiria blurted out the first thing that came to mind.
âBecause I wanted to see you, Duke?â
Wink.
ââŠâŠâ
No reaction. If anything, the air grew colder.
So she tried again, pretending,
âAs your doctor, I was just doing late-night rounds because I was worried about my patient!â
ââŠâŠâ
Still no response.
Finally, she admitted,
âYou never let me draw your blood. But if I canât get it, I canât cure your illness. Thatâs whyâŠâ
ââŠI see.â
At last, he reactedâbut his face stayed cold.
âAs Iâve told you, youâre only here to manage my condition, not to cure it. No treatment is needed.â
âDonât say that, please try just once.â
âNo.â
âJust close your eyes and let me?â
âNo.â
âPlease, just one time!â
âNo matter how much you beg, the answer is no.â
âWhy are you so stubborn? If we do this, itâs good for both of us!â
ââŠâŠâ
âCome on, letâs break the rules just for tonight!â
WaitâŠ
Did she really just say that?
On a manâs bed, at midnight, begging him to âbreak the rulesâ with her?
Her face burned bright red.
The Duke tilted his head slightly.
âBreak the rules?â
âY-yeah⊠break the rulesâŠâ
He kept staring at her, unreadable.
What on earth was he thinking?
While fanning her hot face, she suddenly noticed something odd about his words earlier.
âWait⊠you didnât say you wonât do it. You said you canât. Is there some reason you canât be treated?â
ââŠâŠâ
For the first time, his face stiffened.
âDo you have a reason itâs impossible?â
ââŠâŠâ
After a long silence, he suddenly changed the subject.
âThe monsters here tolerate you, so Iâve let you stay. But if you cross the line again, Iâll expel you. Thatâs a warning.â
His tone was cold and weary.
But Kiria wasnât discouraged.
âI wouldnât go this far if it werenât important. But my life depends on this, so I have no choice.â
âYour life? What do you mean?â
âAh, slip!â
Kiria quickly shut her mouth. She couldnât explain her situation yet.
So instead, she put on a serious, sharp gazeâlike her other self, Medeia.
For the first time, the Dukeâs steady eyes wavered.
After a long hesitation, he finally said,
âIf your will is that strong⊠may I add one condition?â
Finally! Heâs agreeing?!
âYes, of course!â Kiria answered quickly.
âThen⊠would you be willing to marry me?â
ââŠWhat?â
âYouâd live here with me forever. If you promise that, then Iâll accept treatment. How about it?â
Kiria was speechless.
Marriage?! He said it with such a grim face too, like it was punishment.
âHe looks like he doesnât even want this. Like he already has someone else he loves.â
âWell, excuse me, but I donât want you either!â
Pouting, she shook her head firmly.
âSorry, Duke, but youâre not my type.â
ââŠPhew.â
âWait, did you just sigh with relief?!â
âNo.â
That was way too quick! Even ruder.
Expressionless again, he said,
âThen thatâs the end of it. Itâs late. Please leave.â
âWah!â
Suddenly, she found herself lifted and carried out.
The Duke placed her gently in the hallway.
âWait a minute!â
She quickly blocked the closing door with her foot.
âWhatever your reason is, trust me. I really can cure your illness.â
âYou said Iâm not your type, didnât you?â
âWell, youâre not mine either. So weâre even, right?â
ââŠâŠâ
The Duke sighed again.
âMy illness isnât something that ends with treatment.â
ââŠWhat do you mean?â
âItâs something that must never be cured. No one may touch it. âŠExcept her.â
âHer?â
âMedeia. Sheâs a brilliant apothecary and an expert in poisonous herbs.â
âOh? Really? But I heard others saying she only makes illnesses worseâŠâ
âTheyâre ignorant fools.â
His voice sharpened.
âDonât listen to people who canât see her true worth. Remember that.â
âAh⊠okay.â
His tone was still stiff, but when Medeiaâs name came up, all his weariness vanished.
It was like he wanted to explain how amazing she was but was forcing himself to stay calm.
âThis is likeâŠâ
âŠlike a hardcore fan protecting his favorite idol.
âMedeia is the one I trust most. Only she can touch my illness. So give up.â
With that cold statement, he shut the door.
Left alone, Kiria tilted her head.
The Dukeâs most trusted, his favorite personâ
Medeia.
ââŠBut that Medeia is actually me.â