Chapter 2.
In other words, it really had meant nothing.
Both of them were well aware that a kiss was usually something shared between lovers.
Of course, Greta and Percy were not lovers. They had never once harbored such feelings for each other. When youâre busy worrying about whether youâll live or die in the aerial battle happening in just a few hours, there is no room for romance.
And even if that were not the case, Greta had only ever seen Percy as her loyal adjutantânever as a man.
The kiss that happened in that moment wasnât a declaration of secret affection. It was closer to an explosive release of joy that they had survived.
It just so happened that Gretaâs adjutant was, by pure chance, a very handsome man.
That was all.
Because of that, Greta quickly forgot the kiss they shared. Had something like that really even happened?
If a war correspondent hadnât immortalized that moment in a photograph, it would have remained nothing more than a passing incident and been forgotten by everyone.
Even at the celebration party that night, it was the same. Naturally, no party is complete without alcoholâbut of course an air base wouldnât have any liquor lying around.
And yet, despite the lack of alcohol, the soldiers were already half-drunk. As far as Greta could tell, not a single one of them seemed sober. The only reasonably composed person was Percy, sitting quietly at a table.
They shouted half-tuneful songs at the top of their lungs, mimicked the traditional partner dances from the South even though they were all men, and even beat their helmets like drums. The metallic noise and rowdy laughter served as their substitute for alcohol.
For some reason, Greta didnât want to be in the center of that madness. She sat with Percy in a corner, hoping to blend into the background.
Unlike the others, he seemed lost in thoughtâcompletely out of sync with the celebration. He didnât look like a soldier reveling in victory. Was he not happy?
Trying to buoy his spirits, Greta struck up a conversation.
âSo then, my beloved and respected adjutant.â
Only then did Percy smile. Niceâhe looks much better when he smiles, Greta thought, continuing.
âThe war is over now. Whatâs your plan?â
âA plan, maâam?â
âWell, regardless of what comes next, youâll go home for a while, right? Come to think of it, Iâve never asked about your hometown. Where are you from?â
âI was born in Stratford, but spent most of my life in the capital.â
âOh? A city boy, huh? How old were you when you moved?â
âI believe I was five.â
âI always wanted to live in the capital. There are so many bright, glittering things there. I used to think that if I lived in a place like that, maybe I could shine too.â
âYou already shine, Captain. In the most glorious way the Empire could hope for.â
âOh, donât flatter me.â
âFor a pilot, isnât that a bit of an odd thing to say?â
Well, look at thatâhe actually has a sense of humor. Greta burst out laughing. Percy seemed much brighter than earlier, though still oddly out of place among the revelry.
She couldnât shake the feeling that he looked⊠melancholy.
âIs it because youâre worried about your family?â
âMy family⊠will be fine.â
âNo, I meanâyou seem deep in thought. If you have something on your mind, spill it. When will you get a chance like this again? Iâll listenâas an equal, soldier to soldier.â
ââŠNothing like that. Itâs just⊠I canât believe itâs really over. I canât adjust to the idea. I keep thinking that maybe when I wake up tonight, everything will have been a dream.â
âNeed me to pinch you so youâll believe it?â
She extended her hand to pinch him, but surprisingly, Percy didnât pull away.
âWould you?â
He was completely serious.
Unable to pinch him while looking into those deep golden eyes, Greta raised her voice instead.
âDonât talk nonsense! This isnât a dream. Itâs real. We won the war. So stop overthinking and keep talking. Your future plans. What are you going to do? And donât give me something clichĂ© like âhug my family.ââ
Percy thought for a moment, then shook his head.
âI donât know. Itâs something I should think carefully about.â
âThen Iâll go first. As for meâŠâ
Finally able to voice the thought sheâd been carrying deep inside her, Greta lifted her chin triumphantly.
âIâm going to apply for retirement.â
ââŠWhat?â
âIâm leaving the military. For good. Itâs time I lived my own life. Donât you think the Empire owes me that much? Surely you agree.â
Percy looked stunnedâlike he couldnât understand her words, or couldnât accept them.
Retire⊠He mouthed the word, just as he was about to speakâ
âCaptain!â
Her subordinates erupted in rowdy laughter, calling for her. The soldiers who had been entertaining themselves now turned their attention to her.
âWe were celebrating without the guest of honor!â
âUnforgivable!â
âHurry over! The star of this glorious night canât be missing!â
âOh, hell.â
Greta muttered under her breath. So much for staying unnoticed. Before she had time to prepare herself, the men swarmed her.
âWeâll escort you personally!â
âLOYALTY!â
âHeyâlet go!â
Leaving Percy behind, Greta was dragged into a human barricade. There was no escaping it. Just as she resigned herselfâ
âA song, Captain!â
âA song! A song!â
âWe shall engrave it upon our hearts like a battle anthem!â
Fireworksâcheap ones from who-knows-whereâexploded overhead. Greta waved the falling confetti away irritably.
The atmosphere was reaching its peak. With everyone chanting in unison, she couldnât even argue.
A song! A song! A song!
There was no choice.
âEveryone shut up!â
Her order silenced them instantly. No matter how drunk they were, the instinct to obey a superior officer was ingrained in their bones.
Once the room was quiet, she scolded them.
âIf you donât quiet down, how are you supposed to hear me sing?â
They erupted into cheers. Someone dragged over a standing microphoneâprobably the one used for morning briefings.
Her voice boomed through the speakers.
âYou really wonât be satisfied until you hear a real song?â
âYes, maâam!â
âThen promise! One song. After that, you let me go.â
âWe promise!â
The not-quite-soldiers burst into laughter.
With all eyes on her, Greta steadied her breath. She never imagined she would sing in uniform. Life really was unpredictable.
Far across the room, Percy was watching her. Meeting his gaze, Greta began to sing.
This isnât just some passing tune
The noise of the cityâthe honking carsâor maybe the sound of your own heartâŠ
What difference does it make?
The familiar melody pulled an old memory to the surface.
âSally, if I ever become free⊠Iâm going to be a singer.â
âThatâs amazing! Why not do it now?â
âAre you crazy? I canât just pack a bag and leave for the capital. Once I finish my service⊠once I have some power of my own⊠then Iâll finally do what I want. By then, Iâll finally be free from my familyâs shadow.â
âYou can do it. And when you get famous, youâd better sign something for me first.â
âSign?â
âNever mind. Iâll get it in advance. You were born with a voice for this.â
The men had only wanted to tease her, not listen to something genuinely beautiful. No one had expected this.
A singer stood before themâa singer dressed in military uniform. Her voice was powerful, yet as soft and tender as a harp.
It wasnât the voice of war. It wasnât of this dry, colorless world. It was a voice from somewhere far beyond.
Even Percy listened, unable to look awayâuntil, for a moment, she stopped being his superior officer, and he saw her simply as a woman.
This is wrong.
But her voice unraveled his thoughts. The longer he listened, the more terrified he became of what he might do. So, taking advantage of everyone elseâs distraction, he slipped out quietly.
He didnât stop walking until her voice faded completely.
With a sigh, he replayed the sight in his mind.
Her blond hair, slightly disheveled.
Her eyesânot sharp and commanding, but distant, dreamy, enchanting.
And⊠that voice.
He had never heard her sound like that.
It might have been the most beautiful voice a woman could possess.
Lost in the memory, Percy shook his head sharply.
His commanding officer merely sang.
He was the one who saw something he shouldnât have. He chastised himself and stood there, motionless.
He pushed the memory awayâno, he tried to force it out.
Because it wasnât the first time something like this had happened.
And whatever this feeling wasâ
It was forbidden.
That much, he knew for certain.