Chapter 11Ā
Hares Irisel had always believed ā with absolute certainty ā that there would never be a better friend in his life than Lize Chelsea.
They had grown up together since childhood, almost like siblings. They knew each other better than anyone else, and their bond was easy, natural, and comfortable.
And no, ācomfortableā didnāt mean boring.
Lize Chelsea, with her soft brown hair fluttering like that of a cheerful puppy, always dragged him around everywhere. She was curious, honest, clumsy ā and irresistibly endearing.
They laughed and argued over the silliest things. She was mischievous yet serious when it mattered, and whenever he was down, she was the one who comforted him without judgment.
She was genuine. A friend he could be stupid in front of ā and still be accepted.
Hares respected her deeply.
More than that ā she had been part of more than half his life.
Thatās how important Lize was to him.
And never once had she been a sexual being in his eyes.
Sometimes, though, men would say disgusting things about her.
āCome on, sheās easy, right? Her parents are always abroad, no one to watch her. Sheās got that cute, droopy-eyed face. And her body ā sure, she dresses modestly, but you can tell sheās got a nice chest under thereā¦ā
Those filthy jokes ā made by cowards who thought he wasnāt around.
Men who pretended to be gentlemen in front of women, but behind their backs, rated them like objects ā bragging about sleeping with maids or gossiping about which noblewoman had the best figure.
Hares would just let out a quiet, dangerous laugh behind them.
And then? He would challenge them to duels.
Officially, they used wooden swords. But Hares always used his fists.
Heād smash their faces, break a bone or two ā enough that they couldnāt lift a weapon for weeks.
After that, no one dared to say anything vulgar about Lize Chelsea again.
Until one idiot, freshly arrived in society, decided to test him.
āYouāre talking about my friend with that filthy mouth of yours?ā
The other men around him froze, faces pale. The loudmouthed one turned, blinking, and met Haresās gaze.
āYou mustāve heard, right? Iām the kind of bastard who goes rabid if someone so much as mentions Lize Chelsea in the wrong way.ā
āS-Sir Hares Irisel, I didnāt mean it like thatāā
The boy stammered, and Hares stepped closer, his voice low and calm, almost lazy.
āDo you ever look in a mirror? Your headās so big it looks like a moon, your nose is huge, your eyes are tiny ā all out of proportion. Like a squid that crawled out of the sea and decided to start talking trash.ā
āI wasnāt talking about Lady ChelāChelsea, I swear!ā
āYou think you can call her Lize? Only I can do that. You will address her as Lady Chelsea or the Countās daughter, you little piece of trash.ā
Hares smiled coldly, his eyes still curved in a deceptively gentle way.
āCome outside.ā
āW-what?ā
āIām challenging you to a duel. Either face me properly with a sword, or kneel here and promise ā in front of everyone ā that youāll never speak filth about Lady Chelsea or any other lady again.ā
Everyone knew Hares was a monster with a sword ā or without one.
That murderous look in his eyes wasnāt bluff; it was the gaze of a man whoād already seen blood.
The boy crumbled immediately, falling to his knees.
āS-sorry! I-Iāll never speak that way again! Not about Lady Chelsea or any other lady!ā
āGood. Keep that disgusting mouth of yours shut. I could smell the stench of your words from across the room.ā
Then Hares pressed his boot against the boyās head.
It was a humiliating act ā but who could protest? He was a noble of far higher rank, with the power and skill to back it.
āGet out of my sight. And donāt you dare set foot in this clubhouse again. I donāt want low-class, filthy animals like you tainting the air.ā
He raised his voice just enough for the manager to hear. The guards moved instantly.
āY-yes, Iāll leave! Aghā!ā
The idiot was dragged out by the guards before he could even get up on his own.
The room fell silent.
Hares looked around and said flatly,
āLet me be clear ā what you do privately isnāt my concern. But if I hear any more remarks like that, I will report it as sexual harassment.ā
No one dared respond.
Hares had always personally crushed anyone who dared to see Lize that way.
So whyā¦
āDamn it,ā he muttered under his breath later that night.
Why had he just done the same thing himself?
It had been the first time heād ever been that close to a womanās body ā the soft warmth of Lizeās chest pressing against him.
He told himself he hadnāt thought anything ā that he was too shocked to think.
But when he trudged home, his mind refused to calm down.
He knew perfectly well Lize hadnāt meant anything by it.
Heād seen how flustered and embarrassed she was.
The faint tears in her red eyes, the way her lips parted and closed helplessly, the damp rose-scented hair clinging to her shouldersā¦
Every bit of it screamed that she was a woman ā delicate, beautiful, and close enough to touch.
āDisgusting bastard.ā
Heād looked at her like that.
The same Lize heād always sworn to protect, the girl he thought of as a little sister.
And yet, over something so small⦠heād wanted her.
He couldnāt understand it ā couldnāt forgive himself.
But what made it worse was what happened later that night.
The heat. The unbearable heat that wouldnāt fade.
āUgh⦠damn it,ā he groaned.
He tried to push away the thoughts, to think of anything else ā but the harder he fought it, the more vividly he remembered the feel of her.
The warmth. The softness. The way her thin pajamas had clung to her skin.
He knew it was wrong. He knew it.
But before he realized it, his mind had betrayed him.
He imagined pinning her wrist, sliding his hand under the fabric, kissing her neck, tasting her skin, watching her tremble beneath him.
He imagined her eyes ā those gentle brown eyes ā blurring with tears and pleasure.
He imagined taking her.
āLizeā¦ā
Hares clenched his jaw, forcing himself to stop ā to breathe.
He eventually calmed down, staring down at his wet palm in disgust.
āSo they were right ā thereās no such thing as a perfect friendship between a man and a woman.ā
He laughed bitterly.
And yet, even then, he knew one thing for sure ā he didnāt want to ruin what they had.
Heād rather stay her lifelong friend than risk everything for a fleeting desire.
If he had to choose between a friend for life or a lover he might lose, heād pick the first, every time.
Besides, it wasnāt like Lize liked him anyway.
āShe probably already likes someone else,ā he thought. āShe just hasnāt told me who.ā
He couldnāt let her know what kind of thoughts heād had ā how dirty and shameful they were.
She was too innocent. Too pure.
If one of them had to be the terrible person, it might as well be him.
Still, the shock wouldnāt fade.
Heād always thought of her as someone untouchable ā like family. Someone he could never see that way.
And yet now, the idea of kissing her didnāt make him sick. It made him burn.
āEven an animal would have more self-control than me.ā
And then ā the very next day.
Lize stood before him, her damp eyes steady and unwavering, and said clearly,
āI like you.ā