Chapter : 15
Huh?
Why for the left hand?
Because youâre left-handed!
Others donât know, but I do.
Iâm the one who made you left-handed.
And when you killed me, you killed me with that left hand too.
Thatâs why I absolutely had to give you a wrist guard for your left hand.
And youâofficially pretending to be right-handedâyou canât even wear a guard on your left wrist, right?
But of course, I couldnât say out loud that I knew this.
If I said I knew something that only he himself should know, he would definitely find it strange.
âI thought youâd already have a right-hand guard, so I made this for the left.â
Iâll pretend not to know that youâre left-handed.
At my explanation, his stiff expression eased just a little, but he didnât say anything.
âThen, Iâll really take my leave now.â
I bowed again and stepped out of the Crown Princeâs office.
Calix sat in silence after Caelyn Brockburke left the room, staring at the left-hand wrist guard on his desk.
âLeft hand⊠left handâŠ.â
She said she thought he would have one for the right hand, but giving a left-hand guard as a gift wasnât normal.
There was a long-held belief that being left-handed was unlucky, so giving someone something for the left hand was hardly common sense.
Yet she brought one for the leftâŠ
Even Rajiv and Relâhis closest men, like extensions of himselfâdidnât know he was left-handed.
There was no way someone he barely knew could.
He stared at the guard for a long time before finally reaching out and picking it up.
Words were embroidered on it:
<Donât forget â Caelyn Brockburke>
âDonât forget?â
How strange.
Normally, such gifts bore words of blessing or praise.
But donât forget?
Donât forget what?
Donât tell me⊠donât forget Caelyn Brockburke?
At that moment, all the puzzling words sheâd spoken to him before came back to him, and his grip on the guard tightened unconsciously.
âAh!â
Suddenly, a sharp pain struck his head, and confusion swirled.
Because her words from earlier flashed back:
âYour Highness, youâve saved my life twice now.â
The way she said itâas if it were a simple factâmeant it must be true.
Which meant he had once saved Caelyn Brockburke before as well.
It wasnât in his memory, so it must have happened during that time heâd lost.
Once again, the thoughts that had tormented him these past days surfaced.
A girl in the water.
A girl unconscious.
A beautiful woman, a lovely girlâŠ
A childâŠ
That child⊠who was she? Could it be Caelyn Brockburke?!
Calixâs eyes widened in shock, darting toward the door she had exited.
That strange woman who says she likes obsessive loveâthat girl was her?
The thought that the girl in his memories might actually be Caelyn Brockburkeâwho had just handed him the wrist guardâshook him.
And with that thought, that unfamiliar feeling heâd felt when she once said she liked him surged up again, hot and pounding.
The full moon had come around again.
My head still hurt from Fatherâs issues with the Empressâs faction, but I decided I needed to cool offâwith some culture.
And what better culture than another visit to the night marketâs book carts?
I asked Aby to come with me, but she had other matters, so I had no choice but to go alone.
I easily found my way back to the alley of book carts, and quickly spotted the same one as last time.
I hadnât seen Eden since the jousting tournament, and word was heâd returned to the Darkus Empire.
So no unlucky encounters this time.
I started by picking up the books I couldnât buy last time, tucking them under my arm, then enthusiastically began digging for more.
If the first book was aristocratsâ 19+, then I wanted to try commonersâ 19+.
A comparative study of sexual culture across social classes, so to speak.
For once, I wasnât worrying about survivalâjust expanding my 19+ education. Pure healing!
Ah, wonderful!
The commonersâ 19+ was just as excellent.
Its defining trait was⊠absolute disregard for time and place.
So much that it made me go, âHere, too?!ââand sure enough, yes, there too.
âNow, too?!ââand yes, now too.
When it came to Aby, a marquisâs daughter, the reality didnât quite match this depiction of noble vs commoner practices.
But judging from the books⊠I definitely leaned commoner in taste.
Anyway, I was never destined to end up with Calix.
From the start, the heroine slot was already reserved for someone else.
Leon was pretty, sure, but I never let myself feel drawn to himâI knew better.
Someday, once this precarious position between Calix and Leon was behind me, I wanted to live sweetly with a handsome, kind manâcommoner or noble didnât matterâfreely practicing my surprise 19+ lifestyle.
As long as I survived, of course.
Ah, look at this picture! This guy âHansâ is just perfect.
Handsome face, good body, kind heartâall my type.
And Hans is good day and night. What a treasure!
In my last life I hadnât even managed dating, let alone marriage, before dying.
This time, I wanted to live, meet a wonderful man, and be happy.
Full of hope, I devoured each page carefully.
In the end, I decided to buy the book I was reading, along with the one tucked under my arm from last time.
I pulled out money to pay, but at that very moment, the cart owner glanced somewhere, went pale, and suddenly boltedâwithout taking my money.
What theâ?
Like heâd seen a ghost?
âHey! Take the money!â I shouted after him.
But thenâthud!âmy heart dropped.
Because right after my shout, a pounding sound was rushing closer, fast.
Da-da-da-da-da!
Many heavy footsteps, charging at full speed, like ominous drums.
Anxiety gripped me. I turned my head instinctively toward the soundâ
And froze.
Knights.
A whole squad, storming in.
And leading themâtall, broad, at the frontâ
No way.
WHY are you here?!
My eyes nearly popped out as I froze in place.
It was Calix.
But he wasnât looking at me.
His gaze was locked on the fleeing cart owner.
âDonât let a single one escape!â
He roared, sprinting past me in pursuit.
What the hell was going on?!
In an instant, the alley of book carts was crawling with knights.
With Calix and some chasing after the owner, the others began inspecting the carts.
Inspecting? For what?
Oh no.
Could these carts be selling unauthorized, illegal books?
The knights started rifling through carts, even binding some sellers.
What theâseriously?!
Knights, inspecting books?
Wow. Must be peaceful times in this empire.
No, noâthis wasnât the time for sarcasm.
I needed to get outâwhile Calix was distracted!
I clutched the books under my arm, debating.
The knights were examining everything.
If I set mine down now, it would draw even more attention.
No, Iâd take them with me.
These were my precious two, after all.
I slipped the money between the books on the cart, then carefully edged away, hugging my purchases.
Telling myself: âI paid fairly. Iâm just taking the books I bought, like any normal customer.â
But before Iâd taken ten steps, someone blocked my way.
Ugh⊠not you again.
Rajiv.
The Crown Princeâs deputy commander.
One look at him, and I knew.
I was screwed. Thoroughly.
Still, I had to try.
Summoning every drop of courage, I snapped, âMove.â
Iâm the dukeâs daughter, donât forget.
Youâve seen Calix let me go before.
But Rajiv clearly wasnât intimidated.
Didnât even look amused.
âStop. You cannot take those books.â
Damn. He saw.
He saw the books under my arm.
Why is my cultural life always so cursed?!
Now that he knew, the fact that I was Caelyn Brockburkeâthe dukeâs daughterâonly made it worse.
Because the titles were⊠âThe Unforgettable Night of the Dukeâs Daughterâ and âMary the Florist and Hans the Bakerâs Endless Days and Nightsâ.
There was no way I could hand them over.
I hugged them tighter.
âI donât want to take them from you by force, Lady Brockburke.â
Ugh. He remembered me perfectly.
Of courseâheâs my familyâs assigned watchdog.
Had he been watching me this whole time?
Still, no way would I give them up.
âRajiv⊠sir, right?â
My bravado shrank, politeness slipping in without me noticing.
âYes.â
He answered flatly.
I tried again, more deferential this time.
âSir Rajiv, I only came to the night market to look around. I picked up a book or two for a hobby. I paid for them. I donât know what this commotion is, but please step aside.â
âYou cannot take those books. Hand them over.â
Seriously? Why!!!!
Youâre confiscating whole carts, canât you spare just two?!
These are mine! Bought with my money!
I glared at his blank face, clutching the books to my chest as if they were babies.
But thenâfootsteps. Heavy, approaching.
And a familiar voice:
âLady Caelyn Brockburke. Put the books down.â
My face flushed hot as I turned.
Of course.
It was him.
Calix.