<Chapter 40>
āYou areā¦.ā
The head priest recognized me and looked startled.
Without realizing it, I grabbed Sir Aidenās arm and began trembling uncontrollably.
I knew well that the priest hadnāt harmed me out of malice. He had simply done what he believed was his duty.
But the process had been so painful that even seeing his face made it hard to breathe, the fear choking me.
āMiss, are you okay? Whatās wrong? What happened?ā
āL-L-Lord Aiden⦠Itās just⦠I⦠ugh.ā
My chest tightened. My head throbbed, and my shaking body refused to calm.
The pain from the Inquisition resurfacedācold, hunger, the feeling that even the slightest breeze might shatter me.
āThis wonāt do. We should move Miss Selena inside.ā
At the head priestās suggestion, Sir Aiden lifted me without hesitation and carried me in.
Leaning against the drawing room sofa and sipping water, the tremors slowly began to subside.
āAre you alright?ā
At the priestās question, I took a breath.
I wanted to respond, but as soon as I heard his voice, my chest clenched again, and I couldnāt speak.
āā¦I was very worried about you.ā
āYou know each other?ā
Sir Aidenās voice was sharp with suspicion as he stood between me and the priest, his face wary.
āH-He was the one who interrogated me⦠at the Inquisition.ā
I couldnāt finish the sentence. Pride held me back. It was humiliating to even admit I had been sent there.
Even though my voice trembled, I forced myself to act composed.
āFather, have you been well?ā
āWhether I have or havenāt doesnāt matter. Iām just relieved to see you looking better.ā
āThank you for your concern. I didnāt expect to see you here⦠Youāre the head of this orphanage?ā
āYes. I was assigned here two years ago. But what brings you here today?ā
āI have a child I need to entrust. Weāre here to assess the environment in advance.ā
Sir Aiden spoke before I could answer, his tone heavy and curtājust like when we first met.
āHe seems like a different person.ā
His broad back stood between me and the priestāperhaps to protect the frightened me.
It was his way of being kind, awkward as it was. The gesture brought a sting to my nose.
No one at the Inquisition had stood up for me.
No one protected me from the things that hurt. No one had shown me even the slightest kindness.
āIf I had met Sir Aiden before going to that place⦠would anything have been different?ā
As I was lost in that pointless thought, the priest asked:
āThis child⦠how old is he?ā
āHeās ten. A boy. Recently orphaned after his grandmother passed. Iād raise him myself, but the law forbids it.ā
āHowās his health? Any conditions?ā
āYou think I wouldnāt take care of at least that much?ā
āAh⦠My apologies.ā
Watching them talk, I suddenly realized we hadnāt even introduced ourselves properly.
āIām Selena Rayon.ā
āRayon?ā
āI was excommunicated, so I needed a new name.ā
āI see. Iām Manuel Moreno. Please, just call me Manuel.ā
āAiden Calypso.ā
āCalypso? Donāt tell meā¦ā
Father Manuelās eyes widened. Sir Aiden, clearly used to such reactions, remained calm and asked:
āMay I take a look around the facility?ā
āAh, yes. Of course.ā
Sir Aiden glanced at me, unsure if he should take the priest with him or not.
āLord Aiden. Iād like to speak with Father Manuel alone.ā
āThen Iāll go take a look around.ā
āThank you.ā
Before leaving, Sir Aiden looked back at me with concern.
I smiled to reassure him, and with a small sigh, he left the room.
An awkward silence settled. It was hard to be the first to speak.
I was busy managing my emotions, while Father Manuel looked somber as well.
In the end, it was the priest who spoke first.
āIāve prayed for you, now and then. For your well-being.ā
āā¦ā¦ā
āYou must hate me.ā
āI donāt. But the memories of that time still cling like shadows. They scare me.ā
āā¦Iām sorry.ā
We fell silent again. Outside, the sound of childrenās laughter floated in.
āIf I eat spinach, will I grow up cool like the knight man?ā
āYou think spinach aloneāll do it? Youāve gotta eat carrots and squash too.ā
āSquash too?ā
āYup.ā
Glancing outside, I saw Sir Aiden shepherding the children around like the Pied Piper.
Children have a way of seeing to the heart of things. Despite the scar on his face, they werenāt scaredāon the contrary, they seemed to love him.
āI donāt know this child yet, but this place is different from other orphanages. We raise each child with love, so you neednāt worry too much.ā
āI caught a glimpse coming in. The childrenās faces looked bright.ā
āThatās good to hear. Each of them is a precious life. If youāre concerned, we can send weekly letters updating you on the childās status.ā
Wanting to prove his sincerityāand perhaps from guiltāFather Manuel even showed me detailed care records of the children.
After touring the orphanage, Sir Aiden checked the care records and nodded in approval.
āThisāll do. And there are lots of kids Willās age here. Thatās good.ā
Thus, our visit to the orphanage ended swiftly.
Well, the decision was quickābut it took Sir Aiden quite a while to escape the swarm of children before we could return home.
ā§ā§ā§
After returning from the orphanage, I barely had time to breathe.
Not only were Sir Aidenās lessons demanding, but my personal time was filled with preparations for the expo.
Letters and documents flew in by mail. I had to stop by various vendors, confirm details, and finalize countless things.
And I wasnāt the only one busy.
Sir Aiden had started swordsmanship training every morning.
Heād confessed in the carriage on the way back from the orphanage:
āIāve started taking sword lessons from Jackson.ā
āSword lessons? But heās a servant.ā
āHe used to be a knight. Took some convincing, but I managed. So no need to keep looking for another instructor.ā
āHmmā¦ā
āWhatās wrong? Something bothering you?ā
āJacksonās not exactly the most diligent man. Just keep that in mind.ā
āI know. But Iāll be diligent, so itās fine.ā
He said it so confidently, then dedicated himself fully to training from the next day.
āAh⦠this scentā¦ā
As I checked my bag one last time, I caught a familiar scent and turned aroundāto see Sir Aiden, having entered without a sound.
He often came to lessons with damp hair after training. His post-shower scentāclean and calmingālingered in the air.
āWhen did you get here? You shouldāve said something.ā
āI did. You just didnāt notice. The expo booth opens for three days starting today, right?ā
āYes. Iām a bit nervous.ā
āYou donāt look nervous at all.ā
When he smiled, eyes gently crinkling, my gaze was fixed.
With his arrival, the still air seemed to shift, and time that had been paused began to flow again.
āDoing all this expo prep in just two weeks⦠Never again. I wish Herais were here.ā
āHerais?ā
Sir Aiden frowned. The unfamiliar name piqued his curiosity.
āThe director of the lab I worked with to develop the painkiller.ā
āAh. Want me to take you nearby?ā
āIāve reserved a supply wagon. Thereās a lot to bring. Oh, Iām out of time! I have to go!ā
As I rushed downstairs, Sir Aiden followed and slipped something into my hand.
āEat this on the way. You skipped dinner yesterday.ā
āAhā¦ā
Inside the paper bag was bread stuffed with ham and cheese.
Sir Aiden had offered to help with the expo, saying he wanted to lighten my load.
But this wasnāt a childās playāit was my future. I didnāt have the capacity to worry about him, too.
āThis expo is my responsibility. Iād prefer you not to get involved. And Iāll do my best not to make you worry.ā
I wonder what kind of expression he made at my words.
The faint smile he gave seemed a little bittersweet.
ā§ā§ā§
The way to the expo was more congested than expected.
The capitalās nobles had gathered for a charity party hosted by Amelia at a nearby hotel.
āIf only Sir Aiden could attend too.ā
It would be a great opportunity for him to build connections and gain recognition as a true hero.
But Ameliaās party was invitation-only, limited to those with established networks.
Theyād be selling handmade perfumes and scented soaps to raise donations.
Since I had originally co-hosted it, I knew all the details.
āI never imagined Iād end up next door at the expo instead.ā
Before the expo began, I quickly set up the liquid and powdered versions of the painkiller and anesthetic.
Two medicines didnāt fill the booth completely, but I had medical pamphlets and scientific explanation panels, so it didnāt feel too empty.
āI have only one goal here: visibility.ā
Securing a distribution network and business prospects would be idealābut as Count Estarion said, many viewed painkillers as a shady business.
Because most strong analgesics were narcotic-based and left users dazed, people often dismissed them as dangerous scams.
That was why even a government official dared to demand a bribe from meāthis field lacked credibility.
So today, Iād likely face suspicion and derision from people who didnāt understand the drug.
But I had steeled myself for that.
My goal today wasnāt immediate success. It was handing out samples and business cards.
āIf someoneās in pain, theyāll try even the most dubious remedy. Once they experience its effects, thatās when the real beginning happens.ā
The people at this expo were powerful businesspeople.
If even one of them understood its efficacy, theyād come chasing after me like a miner who struck a diamond vein.
āI can do this.ā
My heart thumped in a pleasant rhythm.
To succeedāto give myself what I need.
That was the greatest gift I could offer myself, after losing everything: my memories, my family, my friends.
And with that, I stepped outside the booth, just as the expo doors opened.
Thank you very much